Anniversary

[lodessa]

Today is Jeremy and my 1 Year Anniversary. We are celebrating tomorrow/Saturday (Dinner [italian just like our first date] and a Hotel Room in Napa) because of my having to work and have therapy today, but I wanted to mark the occasion here because it's one of the biggest and best changes in my life that I can even think of. He's really reshaped my whole world. With him I am a person I thought I long since lost the ability to be. We are that disgusting couple who are always saying "no I love you more" and the me of a year and a day ago would smack us both. But the me of today is totally happy with it. So to those of you thinking "maybe this is all there is"... take heart. It isn't and you can have better and more. Last night I dreamed about Eric breaking my heart all over again (and dating my sister) and then I woke up and remembered that isn't my life anymore. When I met him, I seriously thought Eric was a pinnacle of what I could even want. But Jeremy has shown me that it wasn't true. Jeremy has shown me that love doesn't have to hurt and that a guy can put you first and consider you always and make sacrifices without being over eager. I snuggled up against him and was so incredibly glad that he found me.

So one year down, exponentially more to go.