screw you

Occasionally in the last year, too tired to deal with CD changes I have listened to the radio in the morning on the way to work. This is of course a terrible time to listen (not that there is ever a good time) because all the stations have their annoying morning shows so you can't even listen to the terrible overplayed music. However, I have noticed a change in the composition of this terrible institution since the last time I was listening to the radio (about a decade ago). In addition to the male (mostly guy's guy but with cracks of desirable softness) and the female (feminine but the sort of chick that hangs out with the boys and talks like she isn't into the complicated girl drama or whatever) they have now added a gay guy... because that's apparently a different gender or something. Now on the one hand, yay being gay is obviously more mainstream, but listening to five minutes of the persona they are representing forces me to conclude that possibly the world is scarier than ever. These guys are inevitably shallow, stupid, and emasculated. They are the worst sort of stereotype and seriously probably worse than nothing.

On the bright side. Listening to the radio reminded me of Junior High and how I used to write these amazing RFP future fics in which I was famous and successful (read: a famous actress, author, and designer) and would encounter all the people I currently knew and the ones I was mad at would have terrible futures and miserable fates and all my crushes would be madly in love with me and basically it was all amazingly indulgent wish fulfillment. I suspect that I am not the only one to have done this. Possibly most people didn't write them out but we all fantasize about these kind of things. I do have a point: Let's all write what we think our favorite characters' fantasies about the future would look like. Characters that are teenagers in the canon are probably going to be the easiest (Veronica Mars, Harry Potter, Buffy, etc.) but I'm sure there are others that would work as well (Ugly Betty maybe since they all act like they are twelve half the time?).

Looking towards the future, I took the CBEST on Saturday. Since for whatever reason I am not doing what I would need to in order to do a PhD program because maybe I don't really want it as much as I thought and honestly doing so isn't exactly a brilliant career move, I am moving on and I think that forcing Romeo and Juliet down the throats of 14 year olds, giving them vocab test, and grading their terrible papers would probably suit me surprisingly well and there is always a need teachers. So if all goes according to plan I will be starting Sac State teaching credential program in January (and if not then next fall) and finishing in Spring of 2010 either way.

Friday was Jeremy's birthday. I gave him a blue ipod nano. He named it Malcolm (as in Malcolm Reynolds).

sophia_helix and actoplasm came over for the birthday dinner. I made peach pork chops(a chicken variation for sophia_helix) and twice baked potatoes. It turned out really well. ( Details under the cut. )

Dear Borders,

Your being a terrible company who treats their employees like shit is totally not appreciated.

Sincerely,
Employee's Significant Other



Dear Mother,

Right around your birthday is not the time to make me angry with you. It encourages me to not get you nice presents and to make you feel old.

Love,
Your Child With Money



Dear Bra,

Stop trying to cut my boobs in half.

Thanks,
Your Wearer




Dear Dr. Riddle,

I totally appreciate that you are doing something you could rightly ask me to do, but could you be slightly less weird and sleazy about it?

Yours Truly,
That Cute Administrative Assistant You Are Always Weirdly Flirtatious With




Dear Self,

I know your OCD impulses make you want to spend all day adding books on goodreads.com, but please get back to work and stop undoing all the progress you've made this week as far as being on top of things at work.

-Yourself

Today is Jeremy and my 1 Year Anniversary. We are celebrating tomorrow/Saturday (Dinner [italian just like our first date] and a Hotel Room in Napa) because of my having to work and have therapy today, but I wanted to mark the occasion here because it's one of the biggest and best changes in my life that I can even think of. He's really reshaped my whole world. With him I am a person I thought I long since lost the ability to be. We are that disgusting couple who are always saying "no I love you more" and the me of a year and a day ago would smack us both. But the me of today is totally happy with it. So to those of you thinking "maybe this is all there is"... take heart. It isn't and you can have better and more. Last night I dreamed about Eric breaking my heart all over again (and dating my sister) and then I woke up and remembered that isn't my life anymore. When I met him, I seriously thought Eric was a pinnacle of what I could even want. But Jeremy has shown me that it wasn't true. Jeremy has shown me that love doesn't have to hurt and that a guy can put you first and consider you always and make sacrifices without being over eager. I snuggled up against him and was so incredibly glad that he found me.

So one year down, exponentially more to go.

I am currently dreading when people actually show up at the office and I have to stop using my new ipod nano that Jeremy gave me for Hanukkah, Zoe (who is a sleek gunmetal in color and I am trusting to be "to the job").

otherwise known as: YAYS IPOD!