Insomnia + 1, Self - 1
May. 5th, 2009 02:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lodessaUgh. It's 2:30 and my heart is pounding so fast I'm almost shaking, that and my now familiar friend the nausea. What the fuck is wrong with me? Is this the reward I get for being proactive today and actually putting myself out there, instead of skulking and avoiding? I am meant to feel better after sending out resumes and such. It is times like these that I feel like learning to meditate would be a good investment.
On the other hand, tonight on Castle: Carla from Scrubs and motherfucking ♥Weevil♥. I love Castle's relationship with his daughter so much. Also that young girl is seriously so pretty and I constantly adore how they represent her so nicely without sexing her up weirdly like most teenage girls on tv. And I love how he's kind of secretly a super good guy under all the smarmy sleaze.
Anyway, I'm thinking about doing some VM rewatch, just seeing Fracis Capra on the screen made me miss the good parts of that show so hard. There's a very short list of characters that I've felt so incredibly strongly about (Martha Jones of Doctor Who being the only one since that I can think of... which reminds my that I really need to get my hands on Law and Order: Fucking Pretty).
But first, to get to sleep and stop feeling like a crazy manic person. 25 is meant to be a better year for me than 24, and crazed insomnia is not part of that plan.
On the other hand, tonight on Castle: Carla from Scrubs and motherfucking ♥Weevil♥. I love Castle's relationship with his daughter so much. Also that young girl is seriously so pretty and I constantly adore how they represent her so nicely without sexing her up weirdly like most teenage girls on tv. And I love how he's kind of secretly a super good guy under all the smarmy sleaze.
Anyway, I'm thinking about doing some VM rewatch, just seeing Fracis Capra on the screen made me miss the good parts of that show so hard. There's a very short list of characters that I've felt so incredibly strongly about (Martha Jones of Doctor Who being the only one since that I can think of... which reminds my that I really need to get my hands on Law and Order: Fucking Pretty).
But first, to get to sleep and stop feeling like a crazy manic person. 25 is meant to be a better year for me than 24, and crazed insomnia is not part of that plan.
