Higher Aspirations

[lodessa]

Last night I had a complete meltdown in therapy about the habituation I've fallen into and the way I am not dealing with writing my writing sample of statements of purpose for graduate school. I came to the conclusion that mostly I needed to stop breaking my own schedule and that Jeremy and I need to be harder on each other about doing what we say we are going to.

Today I looked at my latest pay stub and realized I have two weeks worth of vacation time saved up. I am of two/three minds about that fact:

1) If I don't use my vacation when I leave I get all that money paid out and saving would result in about a month's worth of pay by July.

2) Once the Christmas Rush is over Jeremy and I could use that time to go on an actual Vacation.

3) I could take some time off and use it to work on my graduate school applications. I really don't have as much time for them as I always think I will while working full time.



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Comments

[sophia-helix.livejournal.com]

No, I know just how you feel... but remember that week I randomly took off in July? It only worked for me because I literally did nothing and checked out for a while. I also think you might find yourself still procrastinating because you really want to do nothing, not just another kind of work, and then you'll get stressed out over that. I still like our plan of trying to make ourselves do work together (we could even hit the campus library or something and borrow A's laptop for you), and I think weekends are going to be the key time for you, sadly. Saturday's when you've got free times, right?