lodessa: do not want (doctor who)
Via [personal profile] beck_liz: Neil Gaiman says to entitled hoes: George R. R. Martin is not your bitch. Awww Neil Gaiman! You are awesome. Maybe I will just utilize my insomnia to stay up all night reading more Sandman (yes, I finally started).

In other news, my siblings are currently both on my shitlist to varying degrees. My sister needs to grow the fuck up and realize there are certain standards of adult behavior she needs to adhere to if she wants to be treated as anything other than a bratty self-absorbed child. On the other hand, my father called me without any prompting the other day. You win some; you lose some.

Sibling-geddon threatened to ruin my belated birthday festivities but crisis was eventually averted and fun and alcohol were had by all.

I have seen the new Star Trek movie twice. It really could have been subtitled: Spock PWNS so much that times two was necessary.

In TV news: I love Castle to pieces, Bones is still kind of weird this season, Dollhouse's finale was a little sloppy, and OMG Grey's Anatomy... way to realize like 3 years late where you went wrong.

We watched Caprica. There was man-pain. And gratuitous cyber sex-drugs-violence. And racism. Plus terrorism and religious persecution.

Meme: Give me a letter and I will tell you 5 things I like that start with that letter.
lodessa: lol (bsg-daddy issues)
Hello internet. I've been abysmally out of touch since leaving my job. Basically this is because I've been busy relaxing, playing video games, and catching up on visits (so far my maternal grandmother,[livejournal.com profile] countouttheday, my father/sister/brother, and soon [livejournal.com profile] sainfoin_fields and possibly my aunt and paternal grandparents). Also catsitting [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix's LilycatTM. Basically I feel so much better (despite a bizarre sore throat) and quitting was the best thing I've done in a long time.

I will be online more in the next two days, as I need to be writing pinch hits (although possibly only one) for [livejournal.com profile] asoiaf_equinox and my Doctor Who femslash exchange fic, among other things. Also expect a write up on Season 1 of Life (which I totally liked and fulfills my kink for tough female cop detectives with daddy cop issues and men who broaden their horizons and deconstruct their reality... even though Charlie isn't a gateway to the supernatural like Angel and Harry Dresden) and the last two week's the Sarah Connor Chronicles (once I watch this week's as I was busy and didn't get to it Monday on account of Warhammer 40K Tabletop) plus the last two weeks of Bones and possibly season 2 of Torchwood depending on how fast we tear through that.

Also, [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix and I feel that we must go see Lustra (SCOTTIE DOESN'T KNOW) as they are going to be in town on Friday. Y/Y?
lodessa: lol (babylon 5-ivonava-is zoe)
Last night I picked back up watching Babylon 5. I'm a little past midway through season 4 and spoilers ).

In other news, Saturday [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix and I were shopping in opposite directions so I had to advise by camera phone. I kid you not. The best part was when I typed a response about my love of the pattern for this dress she had sent a picture of herself in, and I discovered that while I was doing so she has sent a comment about the exact same facet of the dress. Shared brain, FTW.
lodessa: lol (bones-text-like ancient rome)
1. Monday night, [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix flaked out on watching Bones with me. It was okay though because she was writing her [livejournal.com profile] asoiaf_equinox fic:

Somewhat spoilery reactions to 'Player under Pressure' (mostly bitching about it not airing till now)  )

2. Tuesday night, we watched episodes 4x02 and 4x03 of Doctor Who at last. Non-spoilerly reactions (comments to this post may contain spoilers though):
* Ten's emo seems expand with the growth of his hair.
* Donna is a great choice of character to follow up Martha and Rose. I love that she is an independent adult. If Rose was Heart and Martha was Head... Donna is perhaps Will.
* [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix and I loved Quintus and his short little sacrilegious purple toga.
* This reminded us that Brutus and Mark Antony are totally having hatesex and we are sad that NO ONE has written about it for us.
* We want to hire that chick to do our PR. We are not sure for what, but we were impressed with her skills.
* The promo for this week, made me so excited. I am such a fucking fangirl for a certain champion of Earth.

3. Last night, after arguing with my therapist about semantics, we went out to celebrate [livejournal.com profile] actoplasm's promotion. He didn't get off till 8 and 9 is Jeremy's bedtime for work nights so we were just going to have drinks and appetizers with them and then go and let them finish their dinner alone... but it smelled good so I got mushroom ravioli in a ginger cream sauce and Jeremy got a giant chicken caesar salad. We also modified the "Red Carpet" (one of their specialty drinks: Pomegranate Liqueur, Vodka, Triple-Sec, Sweet and Sour, and Soda) to replace the Soda with their homemade ginger ale, which really killed the not so great vodka aftertaste (they make notoriously strong drinks). We called it the "Ginger Carpet"... which sounded dirty and reminded me of Doctor Who and my theory that he is hanging out with Donna partly because if you can't BE a ginger then you can at least be WITH one, right? It was so good I had two, and then we forgot to order dessert but [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix wanted some so we went over to the Czechoslovakian place's bar, where they serve Princess Cake and make the best Mojitos in town (seriously I don't even bother getting them elsewhere in the area because they always disappoint). We did not get to bed until 11, and have plans to do Happy Hour today in honor of [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix's last day of actual class in law school. Also in honor of cheap appetizers.

4. This week I have written 3 Song of Ice and Fire fics (Well, 2 1/2 fics and 1 ficlet) and I am actually pretty happy with the completed ones for the first time in months. I've even been getting betaed again for the first time in a while.

5. Saturday we leave for Southern California and will not be back until Thursday or Friday of next week. I am so excited to get away and not go to work.
lodessa: lol (soiaf-jaime/brienne-in bed)
1) I am really behind on my flist, but I had a great weekend:

a) Geeky Friday night of BSG and World of Warcraft with Jeremy and my brother.
b) Delicious homemade Macaroni and Cheese I had been craving but not making for a while.
c) A state of the union conversation with Jeremy that actually went somewhere.
d) Actually doing the laundry Saturday morning, and folding it.
e) Udon, Tempura, and Pot Stickers with Jeremy and [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix for Saturday's late lunch.
f) Some walking around on a beautiful Saturday afternoon, mocking the drunk undergrads.
g) Delicious boysenberry frozen yogurt topped with cookie dough, marshmallows, bits of waffle cone, and fresh raspberries.
h) Going to the used bookstore and buying (or rather letting Jeremy buy me): William Gibson's Idoru, Neil Stephenson's Snowcrash (because my lovely early 90s copy disappeared a while back), Orson Scott Card's Ender's Game (which our copy of has also wandered off), Kurt Vonnegut Jr.'s Deadeye Dick, and a copy of Sartre's The Wall which was translated by Lloyd Alexander.
i) [livejournal.com profile] sainfoin_fields arriving so that we could go to a show in the city that evening.
j) Quality time with Jeremy while [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix and [livejournal.com profile] sainfoin_fields went to the movies.
k) Getting to the show at just the right time, Desa being great as ever, and Facing New York going predatory and completely draining my soul with their amazingness and seeming more awake than I have seen them in a long time. Also their being symbolic of everything about Contemporary Art(no matter the discipline) as a whole.
l) Art is not a science.
m) Cheese fries and mozzarella sticks at Denny's to recharge after the soul exfoliation.
n) Getting up at 9:15 Sunday morning, despite not getting home until 3:30 and reading Fables: Volume 9 and 1001 Nights of Snowfall while waiting for [livejournal.com profile] sainfoin_fields to wake up.
o) Successful shopping trip for the beginning of [livejournal.com profile] sainfoin_fields new wardrobe, in which she actually ended up with more stuff than [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix and I, rather than the reverse.
p) Surprise date night with Jeremy, which included tasty fake Mexican and a margarita which ended up excitingly since I had failed to eat anything during the day.
q) Actually getting a full night's sleep for the first Sunday in ages.


2) I'm also behind on my TV, 2 weeks behind on Doctor Who and still haven't watched any of the NBC stuff since it returned. I am up to date on BSG and Bones though.

3) Why has no one ever mentioned to me the fact that 100 Years of Solitude is the most incest filled book ever?

4) I need a beta for a ASOIAF fic. It's Jaime/Brienne.
lodessa: lol (bsg-strabuck-vice)
So this weekend [livejournal.com profile] countouttheday and her boy came out to California, because he's gotten into a top grad program out here and they are probably going to be moving from New York to here in the fall. She sent me an email on Wednesday night about this fact and maybe making plans for Saturday. I was thrilled. Jeremy, unfortunately had agreed to close Saturday night for someone (usually it is his day off). On Friday he managed to get out of it and we met up with them in the city at about 1... and walked around for about 4 hours. My brother ended up being in the city as well but our timing was off. Which didn't matter much since we all hit it off really well (she and I had hung out in New York about a year and a half ago but the boys hadn't met anyone other than their SO). We headed back to Palo Alto where they were staying, Jeremy and I booked ourselves a room in the same hotel and we had delicious food and alcohol. It was about 3AM by the time we went to bed and I woke up with a little bit of a hangover and slightly more suffering from lack of sleep (I always wake up ridiculously early in the morning if I drink the night before). We almost made them late for their plane, because I mixed up my freeways a little, but it worked out alright in the end as they made it in the nick of time, only to have their plane delayed anyway. In conclusion I am so happy that they are moving out here. We both are.

After dropping them off, we hung out for a few hours in the city with Jeremy's best friend and his fiance, at their place. I feel I was a poor guest (mostly hiding my face in Jeremy's shoulder) but they had also had a late night. We finally left there for my mother's boyfriend's mother's wake at the House of Prime Rib at about 3:20 and found parking and arrived just about exactly on time. Hilariously, some people (including my sister) showed up who had said they weren't going to, so Jeremy and I got seated separately. Basically we had a really nice dinner, with great service, on Dan. We could hear each other and didn't have to deal with awkwardness. It was awesome. I seriously recommend the place if you are looking for a nice place and eat red meat (although apparently they do have seafood and chicken options if you ask). Slightly less awesome is the fact that my left ankle (which is weak since I have sprained it a few times over the years) is all swollen from so much walking and the other is also a little stiff. I've been rubbing stuff on it and it seems to be helping, but I'm definitely going to be avoiding unnecessary walking for a little bit while it recovers.

On the cat front, Cupcake seems not to be too bothered by the newcomer, only occasionally hissing/growling at her until she retreats a little. The radius she insists upon seems to be shrinking though. I have hopes that they can maybe work it out. In which case we need a name for the darling. Kyle has suggested both Pontoof(?) and Yoshimi. The first Tatiana has plans for, and the second has long been [livejournal.com profile] sainfoin_fields' theoretical cat. I jokingly said we should name her Salem (after the cat in Sabrina the Teenage witch) but no one laughed. Jeremy suggested Anastasia, which I like well enough but I am not sold. Perhaps we could call her Arya, but she seems too mellow for the most part. She is long and black.

We watched BSG 4x1 when it aired on Friday[spoilers ahead] )


Jeremy and I wanted to go down to Southern California next week, and he got the time off approved, but I couldn't (am irritated because I mainly feel like my bosses are just being bitchy). So maybe the week before my birthday. I really need some time off and we really need to visit family.

Also I went to the dentist today.
lodessa: lol (bones-booth)
Last night my dad was over, and he, my sister, and I decided to take walk. My town is strewn with interconnecting bike paths and we had probably been walking close to an hour when we come across an adorable black cat, probably about 9 months old. It had a collar with a bell on it and wanted to be pet and rub against us. So we pet it a little and then decided to head back. The cat followed us. We were surprised after a block when it crossed the street and continued to follow, mewing if we got too far ahead. After about a mile we were concerned, we checked it's collar for tags, but there were none. Who puts a collar on their cat but no tags? The cat was obviously lost, but it was not until it followed us across an overpass over one of the main streets that we finally picked it up and carried in the last few blocks. It's possible that it has a chip in it, so we should take it in to see. If not, we need to find it a home though. Apparently Robert and Steve are looking for a cat, or I suspect it would get on well at mom's because Sunny loves cats and Ernest is a really really mellow cat who thinks he is a dog possibly. Right now it is at home with Cupcake though, and we will be lucky if they don't tear the house fighting. I am sort of in love with this cat and wish they would be friends, but I know it would never happen.


On a completely different note: [livejournal.com profile] novin_ha wrote If There Were Water, a beautiful, post-NFA AtS fic about Faith, Wes, and Illyria. It's really true to all the characters and the world. It's bitter, caustic, and broken, but it leaves a faintly sweet aftertaste. I suggest you all read it.


Meme- Tagged by [livejournal.com profile] aphrodite_mine

List ten fictional characters you wouldn't kick out of bed (if it weren't for Jeremy of course) and tag five people to do the same.

Alphabetically By Fandom, pictures included for TV/movie characters. Warning for undignified objectification and squeeing )

Meme from [livejournal.com profile] nentari, Among Others

Dear [livejournal.com profile] nentari,
I don't really know how to tell you this, Our horoscope doesn't match.
I think I realized it First of May Outside of Chicago and I saw you Sit at My avocado plant.
I'm sure you're Ashamed enough to understand That Santa doesn't exist.
I'm returning Your ring to you, but I'll keep Your mom as a memory.
You should also know that I Never liked Our friendship.
In pain,
[livejournal.com profile] lodessa

Meme template )
lodessa: lol (btvs-faith-bad example)
1) Monday of this week, I finished Junot Diaz's The Brief and Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao, which did not disappoint. Diaz goes from large scale description to the intimately personal with such grace and incorporates diverse elements and genres in a way that is incredibly calculated but at the same time impossibly fluid. If you are going to read only one contemporary lit book, read this one. A lot of what the text treats on is trite on one level but the narration and perspective on it transforms the matter from dross to sublime. Plus you will all have fun picking up the variety of nerd references stretching from alterna comics to Lovecraft to anime and back again. The way he talks of El Jefe as Sauron with his cronies as Nazgul, while also telling you about the gruesome details with all the gritty certainty of realism. It's about the Dominican Republic, about growing up a fat nerd, about growing up Dominican in the US, about families and their intricacies, about superstition and fate and free will.

2)So I've been watching Tru Calling and Tuesday night I finished the first season and found myself totally being sad that there are only 6 episodes left. And it wasn't just because Eliza Dushku is gorgeous either. The premise (Eliza Dushku's character Tru works at a morgue; dead people ask her help, and she then relives the day in order to save them.) is a little suspect, but the larger storytelling, the cast as a whole, and the way the show handles tricky issues, really won me over. At first I was just excited to see Eliza Dushku play a responsible, college graduated, who hopes to go to med school, and takes care of her dysfunctional siblings, instead of just being the generally sexy rebel. But Tru is a good character for her own merit, flawed enough to not be annoying, but someone you can really root for. She has serious enough tragedies to feel relevant but all in all things don't seem to have been totally horrible for her or anything. She has a nice apartment, a college degree, and is pretty and easy to like. She wasn't raped or abused. But her family is messed up, her mother was murdered in front of her eyes, and whether she will ever make it to med school is in question. They make the wise decision of having Tru's brother and her boss/assistant play a bigger role than her love interest. Both characters are interesting and very different from each other. I'm not as crazy about the female supporting roles. Tru's cokehead executive sister is satisfying to watch but hardly original, and her best friend Lindsey remains ultimately a stereotypical and shallow (though not mean spirited) girl whom Tru can never confide in. People react reasonably to Tru's interference, not just suddenly believing some random girl they don't know. Tru's fragmented and damaged family comes across realistically and sympathetically. Her relationship with the other characters on the show and the problems her special talent bring to her life are believable. The thing that makes me the most sad about the fact that the show was canceled is that I am really starting to care about the mythos of the show and the mystery surrounding Tru's mother's murder (which took place 10 years before the show begins).

3) Wednesday, I decided to go to the new Costco in the town just north of us (so new that the street it's technically on hasn't even been finished yet). It's a good 10 feet wider than all other Costcos I have been in. Kyle went with me and we got there at about 7:30. Standing in line, I suddenly had a craving for one of their hot dogs. Maybe it was only having had a modest bowl of Raisin Bran, but I was really excited about the idea and Kyle was too. Seriously it's probably been almost a decade since I've had one. I overheard the cashier asking the people in front of us if they wanted anything from the food bar and though that was convenient. She didn't ask us though. I almost said something but then was like whatever I'll just get it at the actual stand. So we waited another 15 minutes to get to the front of the line only to find out that they were CASH ONLY. Our options where:
a) Stand in the original line again to pay with a card, then stand in the pick up line.
b)Get money from the ATM and stand in the food line again.
c) Give up.
We gave up mostly because I was annoyed. Why would they have a new thing be cash only, and if it was why did the bitch cashier not give us the opportunity? We were profiled! Plus I was starving so I felt like crying. So we went to KFC because we were trying to think of somewhere we don't go often. Plus they have delicious biscuits.

4) We all like to laugh at writers like Anne McCaffery and for good reason. Their books tend to be all the same, at least after the first few. But honestly she was my gateway into fantasy (well my parents read some to me, but hers were the first ones I read for myself). I've read so many of her books that I have a hard time remembering which ones they were vs. the ones I haven't. And I enjoyed them (mostly for the cheesy but implied porn romance plot lines). So tell me, what redundant writers have you read so many of that you no longer remember the individual titles? I'm thinking fantasy authors but any other genre is okay too. I also read a ton of those "The Cat Who blah blah blah" mysteries. And on the kid/ya front I read a ridiculous amount of: Nancy Drew, The Nancy Drew Files, Christopher Pike, Sweet Valley High, and The Babysitters Club. My favorite professor once referred to how we approach these things as consumption reading, differentiating it from when we take time to look at a text and judge it's merits. So tell me flist, what kind of literary junk food have you gone through in your time?

letters

Feb. 28th, 2008 12:49 pm
lodessa: lol (btvs-cordelia-death by boredom)
Dear Borders,

Your being a terrible company who treats their employees like shit is totally not appreciated.

Sincerely,
Employee's Significant Other



Dear Mother,

Right around your birthday is not the time to make me angry with you. It encourages me to not get you nice presents and to make you feel old.

Love,
Your Child With Money



Dear Bra,

Stop trying to cut my boobs in half.

Thanks,
Your Wearer




Dear Dr. Riddle,

I totally appreciate that you are doing something you could rightly ask me to do, but could you be slightly less weird and sleazy about it?

Yours Truly,
That Cute Administrative Assistant You Are Always Weirdly Flirtatious With




Dear Self,

I know your OCD impulses make you want to spend all day adding books on goodreads.com, but please get back to work and stop undoing all the progress you've made this week as far as being on top of things at work.

-Yourself
lodessa: lol (office-pam-salute)
1) If you like either Sarah Silverman or Matt Damon at all: you'll want to watch this.

2) This weekend we were at the mall and we went to the Cheesecake Factory and I indulged and had my beloved Fried Macaroni and Cheese (really rich mac and cheese rolled into balls and covered in breading like mozzarella sticks) and a Georgia Peach(both beautiful and delicious). So many strikes against my diet and or health but so perfectly wonderful at the same time. If you ever end up at a Cheesecake Factory you really do want to try both.

3)Another Poll to Help Cull Icons from Overrepresented Fandoms )

Weekend

Jan. 7th, 2008 10:57 am
lodessa: lol (Default)
The Weekend )

Summary:
*Power was out for a day and a half.
*That's What She Said Drinking Shakespeare.
*Shopping


After much discussion with [livejournal.com profile] hamsterwoman


[Poll #1117123]
lodessa: lol (office-accidental vindictive genius)
Days Woken Up Before 4AM This Week: 3
Days Called In Sick of Work This Week: 1
Hours Spent Working on Applications This Week: 12
Hours of TV Watched This Week: 8 (most recent 2 episodes of Bones, first 6 episodes of Babylon 5)
Hours of WoW Played This Week: 6
Words Written of [livejournal.com profile] asoiaf_exchange Fic: 700 (of like many thousand but at least I am finally getting something written)
Pages Cut From Graduate School Materials in Editing Process This Week: 6 (4 from Writing Sample, 2 from Statement of Purpose)
Hanukkah Presents Received This Week: Season 2 Bones DVDs (from Jeremy)



Meme: You pick a scenario and a fandom. I will pick a pairing.

Back

Dec. 3rd, 2007 07:22 am
lodessa: lol (30 Rock-Feminism vs. Capitalism)
So I've been away for almost two weeks thanks to Thanksgiving and my actually taking a week off for graduate school application stuff. The Results:

1) Cooked most of a Thanksgiving meal.
2) Quality time spent with my paternal grandparents: 5 Days.
3) Something vaguely resembling a writing sample and of an appropriate length written.
4) All 3 professors writing letters of recommendation visited and forms distributed (though not without much flailing).
5) Preview showing of The Golden Compass: attended (though not with [livejournal.com profile] hobviously sadly)
6) Hours spent researching UC Berkeley English Department Faculty: many.
7) Jeremy dropping me off at work at 4AM on his way out of town this morning at my request as to a)not have to deal with the cold of busing or biking or inevitable lateness of relying on my mother b)have time dedicated to finishing at least a draft of my first statement of purpose.
8) Something passable as a statement of purpose created.



I will slowly be trying to catch up on some of what's been going on while I've been away but if you think there's something I should be aware of please let me know.

HELP!

Oct. 2nd, 2007 09:49 am
lodessa: lol (ad-for money... or candy)
So we are planning on having a Halloween Party. The kind where you invite everyone you've ever met, buy a lot of booze, put anything breakable out of reach, and keep the lights low.

Right now my top costume choice is to be Faith. I was thinking about going brunette again like I have the last two falls anyway, since my mom paid for me to get my hair colored as well as cut at a nice salon and I think it makes my eyes stand out and me look and feel more responsible. I have a pair of chunky heeled black leather boots that would work and I am sure I could dig up one of my old slutty little tops that would do nicely. All I'd have to do is buy the leather pants (and let's face it doesn't everyone sort of want an excuse to do that). Also it's been far too long since I had an excuse to wear heavy eyeliner and dark lipstick. Plus J said he'd make me a stake.

If I did this, J's idea was that he could be a demon, but I sort of hate mask costumes. I am going to see if I can convince him to maybe be Wes... but I am not sure there is an easy way to make that obvious (plus he hasn't seen any AtS so that idea probably isn't going to seem as awesome as it is to him). He is tall and lean through and his light brown hair would work well.



It's still up in the air though. So throw me suggestions (fannish or not).

(Basic stats: Age 23, Caucasian, Blue Eyes, Naturally Dark Blond Hair (But often dyed), 5'3", 130lbs, 32DD)

Dilemma

Sep. 24th, 2007 04:47 pm
lodessa: lol (btvs-faith/buffy)
So tomorrow I could go see my undergraduate institution put on Agamemnon but it would require:

1) 2 hours of driving (1 there and 1 back)

2) Leaving work an hour or more early so as to arrive there by 5.

3) Either going pretty much straight home afterwards (no chance for yummy Indian that dad pays for) or missing the Bones premiere/watching it late.

4) Either convincing my boyfriend to come with me to this event, or losing a number of hours of time with him.



On the other hand:

1) I don't really enjoy being at work that much so getting out early would be nice.

2) M and A do have a Tivo for occasions such as this (plus that would mean no commercials).

3) Possibly getting free and delicious food.

4) I did want to show boyfriend my pretty alma mater.
lodessa: lol (btvs-faith/buffy-(sub)text)
1) 2 Weeks and 3 Days Until my GRE Subject Test for Literature in English.  I am in no way prepared.  Please ask me more questions.

2) I am not stalking Alan Rickman and Eliza Dushku; because, hey I really don't need to make an ass of myself in front of famous people I am actually impressed by. Also: work.

3) My sister has named her new kitten Mr. Ernest Worthing... no one said we weren't a nerdy family (Just be glad that that we didn't go with Ziggy Stardust or Buddy Holly or Biggie Smalls or any of the other ideas that were popular).

4) This weekend my cousin Rachel got married.  My cousin Matt was a bridesmaid... he also caught the bouquet.

5)I have pretty pretty nails (pink and whites and shiny light pink on the toes with white flowers and purple rhinestones). They make me feel... classy.

6) Possibly I never mentioned how pretty my undergraduate school is. ) That's a fairly accurate representation of the school's buildings and grounds... not just the one perfect view or something.

Not Dead

Sep. 12th, 2007 10:36 am
lodessa: lol (ats-wes)
So I was out sick last week and this week I came back to unhappy coworkers and bosses.  Which makes me unhappy... and feel like crap emotionally as well as physically.  They aren't annoyed at me for the things I feel bad about regarding my work performance but the fact that I am insecure makes their criticism hurt even though it is about totally unjust things I shouldn't care about.  My problems with work to a certain extent stem from the fact that I refuse to BE my job.  It's not a career for me it's a job and I want to do a good job but it is not who I am and a refuse to let it ingrain itself on me.  They want me to be the job to love the office to become the identity of administrative assistance.  Fuck all that pedestrian bullshit.  I can't tell them but I will be out of her in a year and in the meantime I will simper and and smile winder than is natural and pretend that this is what I want out of life... but I refuse to believe it. 

In better news, it looks like the Rome Trip is actually a serious plan.  I've wanted to go to Italy for as long as I've known about its existence.  Yes I wish I could take a longer trip and August isn't exactly an ideal month and all that, but if I go on waiting for the perfect time forever I will never see anything and that is what my domestic travels in the last few years have made me realize... less than ideal trips can still be great.  And it's Rome people.  I seriously cannot begin to say how much this is the place.  Other people dream of going to Paris or London but that's never been me.  Ages piled on top of each other, all that history and yet still alive and vibrant.  My Italian professor in college was Roman and when she mentioned Rome there was just something that made you feel like there could be no greater place.  Other people have that feeling for other cities of course.  I've met a lot of New York-philes in my life.  But I think that Rome is something different.  There have been cities and towns and landscapes I've loved myself.  I'm still planning to go back to New Mexico and bask in its mesas and afternoon summer rains and the cliff dwellings and shards of pottery lying everywhere.  Chicago stole my heart unexpectedly.  But it's different.  I've never been to Europe.  Roman roads were built to last and everything points back,  indicators of something great and terrible.  I don't know what it will be like... but I know it is worth finding out.

Also, help me study for me GRE Subject Test for Literature in English.  Ask me about an author or piece of literature from the literary canon (no contemporary stuff please) and I will tell you about he/she/it.  If I don't already know I'll find out.
lodessa: lol (office-jan&jim)
Well I'm back home at last and I might make a post about the second half of my trip at some point but there is job applying to do so I will just say the most important things:

1)Thank you so much to [livejournal.com profile] adelynne and her boy for being wonderful hosts when I was in Boston. I had so much fun and felt so welcomed and comfortable. Seriously on about Thursday my mom asked me if it was getting awkward because staying with people usually does at that point and I honestly could answer that it hadn't. I greatly enjoyed the apple picking, and indian food, and playing settlers, and watching VM with your Carnegie Mellon posse in Boston, and starting to write meta, and discovering that we are cylons.

2)Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] starrysummer for hanging out with me 3 out of my 4 days in New York. It was so awesome getting to hang out with you and plotting to get [livejournal.com profile] sionnain to read SoIaF so she'll write Littlefinger/Sansa and going out and being bought lots and lots of drinks by random men in bars and shoe shopping and amazing crossover bunnies and watching VM together and the going on thehunt for the perfect gold eyeshadow and everything.

3)Thank you to [livejournal.com profile] sophia_helix for picking me up from the airport upon my return, venturing to Ross with me, tivoing all my crack for me while I was gone, going bar hopping with me Friday night, spending the rest of the weekend tv watching with me, and overall just being awesome.

4)And last but not least, yay for [livejournal.com profile] hobviously visting this weekend and sharing her flying bison dvds and eating fancy french cheese and yummy bread and pasta salad with us being the most lovable of drunks.

Also. I missed my cat A LOT. *hearts;
lodessa: lol (BtVS - anya lean)
1) "Stop mocking me and drink my Guiness." Me to [livejournal.com profile] shakanaman, Saturday 7/15/06, at a random Irish Pub in San Francisco with [livejournal.com profile] hobviously and her sir.

2) Clearly they city is the home of a wizarding prison. The dementors totally explain the fog. I cannot believe it took me like a year after the release of HBP to figure that out.

3) At the Japenese Tea Gardens in Golden Gate Park, I recieved a fortune cookie that informed me that I would be very happy with my WIFE. So apparently I am going to end up lesbian/bi?

4) Last night I dreamed I had just gotten accepted to a Masters program in Germany. Strange considering I am looking to do a PhD program in the US.

5) I really like the new melon-ade wave jamba juice flavor. It's so... different.

6) Okay now I'm really just putting off a)doing work and b)finishing my two ficathons fics that are due this week.

7) Friends locked post to follow.
lodessa: lol (veronica mars-black and white mac)
1)Either lying around on the living room floor with Davis until 4:30 in the morning is a habit I need to kick... or it's a totally viable lifestyle. I am not sure which.

2)Dear Firefox, stop trying to guess what I am going to say... it's extremely annoying.

3) I feel a friends-cut coming on. That is the nature of participating in friending frenzies... you add some people that you totally clivk with, but also some that you totally don't.

4)Does anyone else totally get choked up and cry or want to cry every single time they listen to "does he love you?" or is it just me?


ETA:

a) I just spent $32 dollars on cakes for mom's birthday
b) I also just faxed over the form that i had not known I needed to say "yes, I want to graduate."

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