screw you

So I was thinking about representation and writing and fandom's "beige dick" (white boy slash) problem... and then I found myself considering my own writing habits. So I went through all 159 fics/ficlets I have posted to AO3 and came up with some numbers. I write mostly het but I was curious to see just how pale my fic was.

( Overall Stats )

( Looking by fandom specifically (I only included those with five or more fics posted) )

In conclusion: Generally speaking I have gotten better at being less white (except the whole ASOIAF situation and that's more a fandom choice situation) but I still tend to pair with my POCs with white characters and I definitely could do with writing more femslash. Really though, it does tend to be about who my OTC happens to be (which is probably not as "random" as I'd think) and who I ship them with. I don't seem to write about women of color nearly as often as men of color, either.

I have no idea why my WoW Downdloader takes exponentially longer to download that Jeremy's since we are on the same internet/router. The app always says I appear to be behind a firewall. I keep coming back to the mac firewall issue, but I have it on the "allow all" setting so I don't know what else I can do since for whatever reason the preferences and debilitatingly simple and obvious. Googling just finds others bitching and advice to do... well what I already have. At this rate I won't be able to play until tomorrow!

I stayed up until 3AM writing Jaime/Brienne smut against my better judgment. It is not quite done and I am totally unsure if it is postable. In Harry Potter fandom I would have posted it no problem and people would have been into it. Actually in a lot of fandoms it would be a hit. But I feel like we have higher standards in ASOIAF fandom. I really just don't know if it is good or terrible or whatever. I feel like I've lost my writing compass.

Also the landscapers are outside and their leaf blowers and making bits of something hit my windows angrily.


Generally i am just feeling full of foreboding and possibly it is my hormone cycle happening ( I will know in two days if so). That or the cat cursed me with doom. Either seems equally likely.

Flist, link things of glee to me.

1) Pam was browsing the Staples catalog, as she often did on Thursday afternoons, when she noticed the page for the first time. Finished!

2)Taut as a bowstring, she raced through the woods like a child, unaware of the havoc left behind her.

3)Born in exile, they were different from the other ten. Finished!

4)Let it not be said that Sansa was anything but a dutiful wife.

5) It wouldn’t be Hogwarts without her.

6) Being back in Narnia tugs at her violently.

7)Karen always suspects that her father has some complex program that tells him exactly when to make his unreliable, but somehow targeted, phone calls.

8)Tarth seemed unchanged by the calamities that affected the rest of Westernos.

9)This definitely wasn’t how Cam had imagined starting her senior year, totally lost in a new school, a week after classes had already begun.

10)They are all smiles and sunshine.

1. Monday night, sophia_helix flaked out on watching Bones with me. It was okay though because she was writing her asoiaf_equinox fic:

( Somewhat spoilery reactions to 'Player under Pressure' (mostly bitching about it not airing till now)  )

2. Tuesday night, we watched episodes 4x02 and 4x03 of Doctor Who at last. Non-spoilerly reactions (comments to this post may contain spoilers though):
* Ten's emo seems expand with the growth of his hair.
* Donna is a great choice of character to follow up Martha and Rose. I love that she is an independent adult. If Rose was Heart and Martha was Head... Donna is perhaps Will.
* sophia_helix and I loved Quintus and his short little sacrilegious purple toga.
* This reminded us that Brutus and Mark Antony are totally having hatesex and we are sad that NO ONE has written about it for us.
* We want to hire that chick to do our PR. We are not sure for what, but we were impressed with her skills.
* The promo for this week, made me so excited. I am such a fucking fangirl for a certain champion of Earth.

3. Last night, after arguing with my therapist about semantics, we went out to celebrate actoplasm's promotion. He didn't get off till 8 and 9 is Jeremy's bedtime for work nights so we were just going to have drinks and appetizers with them and then go and let them finish their dinner alone... but it smelled good so I got mushroom ravioli in a ginger cream sauce and Jeremy got a giant chicken caesar salad. We also modified the "Red Carpet" (one of their specialty drinks: Pomegranate Liqueur, Vodka, Triple-Sec, Sweet and Sour, and Soda) to replace the Soda with their homemade ginger ale, which really killed the not so great vodka aftertaste (they make notoriously strong drinks). We called it the "Ginger Carpet"... which sounded dirty and reminded me of Doctor Who and my theory that he is hanging out with Donna partly because if you can't BE a ginger then you can at least be WITH one, right? It was so good I had two, and then we forgot to order dessert but sophia_helix wanted some so we went over to the Czechoslovakian place's bar, where they serve Princess Cake and make the best Mojitos in town (seriously I don't even bother getting them elsewhere in the area because they always disappoint). We did not get to bed until 11, and have plans to do Happy Hour today in honor of sophia_helix's last day of actual class in law school. Also in honor of cheap appetizers.

4. This week I have written 3 Song of Ice and Fire fics (Well, 2 1/2 fics and 1 ficlet) and I am actually pretty happy with the completed ones for the first time in months. I've even been getting betaed again for the first time in a while.

5. Saturday we leave for Southern California and will not be back until Thursday or Friday of next week. I am so excited to get away and not go to work.

1) If I were ever to actually write my novel it would be in an anti-naturalist style. Critiquing my own writing yesterday made me notice how much I am about meaning of things and not about little details and methodical description of every little event.

2) Dear Professor,

Some of us have to commute. Also some of us have finals after yours. If you are only going to use half the final period alloted to you at the ungodly hour of 8AM on a Monday morning, please use the second half so that those of us who commute and have finals supposedly right after yours do not have to sit around waiting for their next final for an hour and a half, when they only got a few hours of sleep plus a half hour nap in their car this morning because they had to leave the house at 6AM to make sure to be to your stupid final at 8. 8 is the first final slot... no one is going to have a final before that and no one wants to be up at that hour... so if you are going to use half of your 8-10 slot... use the 9-10 bit and not the 8-9 one. Everyone will be glad you did...even people who don't commute and don't have other finals today.

Thanks,
Me

3) Yes I decided not to finish my last paper last night because my scumbag father decided to be useful and offer to turn it in on Wednesday for me (when it's actually due) so that I won't have to drive back out here if I don't turn it in today. I was just too tired and the paper was not writing well and Bad News Mike was bothering me and dearladydisdain was not online. So I went to bed at 2 and got 3 hours of sleep before I had to get up at 5 and get dressed and drive here to school. I got here at 7:15 and napped in my car until 7:45 and then I went to the dumb short final and now am at the computer lab in the library wasting time because I have to be at my playwrighting final at 10:30 and I was supposed to meet up with my friend at 10 but I am out early.

4)It is possible I will return to fannish things someday but right now I am just in a real life mode so deal or defriend or whatever you feel the need to do.